Happy Friday, my lovelies! I thought I would jump right in and share some more delicious memories from my old journal! Let’s keep things light today, shall we? No talk of the dreaded traumatic past. Just good old fashioned teen angst! First up: a poem about deep emotional desire (or as deep as I could get at that age).
My perception is hazy. My soul has been shattered.
You’re etched in my memory, now. Nothing else matters.
I escape into the ghost of you. I feel you surround me.
My eyes are shut tightly, and there’s no one around me.
I fall into emptiness; the world fades away.
I have no more feelings. There’s nothing to say.
Nothing but silence exists in my mind,
And the memory of happiness you left behind.
As I fall further, I wonder, where are you tonight?
Will I see you again? Will you make things alright?
As I wake, I’m alone. You are but a dream.
Just a ghost; an image. Or so it may seem.
You haunt my heart, and exhaust my mind so.
I try, but I just can’t seem to let go.
© Twisted Libra
I must have been a hoot at parties. I love reading these old poems and seeing how far I have come as a writer, and also what elements of my writing have remained over the years. Now, this next one is a little more fun:
Life goes on all around me. I close my eyes and fall away.
People look at me and wonder, but they never know quite what to say.
They know me not, and I never tell. I keep them guessing all the while.
They point, and laugh, and whisper on. I just sit and flash a smile.
I don’t owe this world a thing. I am more than what you see.
You may have met some freaks before, but you’ve never known anyone quite like me.
I’ll make you think. I’ll make you curious. I’ll leave you desperately wanting more.
You’ll try to solve my mystery, like so many have before.
But in the end, you’ll shake your head, and assume that there’s no use to try.
You’ll write me off as strange or weird, but that’s okay. I’ll still get by.
Try as you might, you can’t forget me. I’ll haunt your dreams and fantasies.
You may have met a lot of people, but you’ve never met anyone quite like me.
© Twisted Libra
Awww! Coquettish Libra! Such a fun little poem, written by a girl who knew jack shit about life. Innocence is truly fleeting. As I read through my teenage scribbles, I recall how limited my world view was back then. It’s somewhat amusing, but I also find it endearing. Things I wrote about, feelings so dark; sadly, life would spend the next several years showing me how much darker it could get. Still, I can’t say I regret any of it. Do I wish some things could have played out differently? Of course. I just refuse to live in regret of what actually transpired, because good or bad, it shaped me in so many ways. Besides, I used to regret a lot of things. I wasted too many years wishing I could alter the past. Now I see that, like it or not, my past got me here and I absolutely love my life now. I wouldn’t change it for anything.
Wow. Look at me, getting fucking emotional. Gah! We can’t have that. I must remain wicked and dark. But I do thank you for being here, and for playing around in the way-back machine with me. More to come over the weekend, so stay tuned! Now, pardon me, but I do have books to advertise. Find them here:
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Enjoy your weekend, my lovelies! I will be back soon!
Until next time…
Dancing Among the Remains 